If I thought there were other major factors, I wouldn't be playing with the idea I have right now at all. I'd be sticking to my "no marathon in 2016" plan. Now that I'm feeling recovered, I can't help this growing need to try again. Soon.
|Okay, but to be fair, I never said never...|
The stomach cramps and liquid bowels I had at 16.5 and 23.5? Possibly heat-induced.
The inability to fuel correctly? Possibly heat-induced.
The need to stop every mile or two to stuff ice in my bra? Definitely heat-induced.
For BDR, I set a huge stretch goal and I meant to go for it. It was a big deal for me that I was honest with you all about my hopes for that race, because in the past my fear falling short has meant I set easier goals so I'd be sure to meet them, and it really sucked to have to write a report that was basically a long, long explanation of my failure.
But I think this was good for me. I've now failed, and I'm not dead. I'm not done. I don't feel defeated. If anything, I feel more determined than ever. And I'm no longer afraid of failure...in this regard, at least.
Over the past week, I've gone from wanting some time off and looking forward to it, to playing around with ideas. This is how I explained it to Kristin:
|I love how quickly her tone shifts from incredulous to practical.|
|This is an example of a reverse-taper plan from Runner's World that I could use to get me back into training in a smart, thoughtful way.|
I've done some research on how to reverse-taper. I've considered that this means I'd need to do another 20-miler (or at least 18) in mid or late January. I'm aware that that might not be realistic and it may be too much too soon; that's why I'm not rushing into any decisions right now. I've gotten advice on both sides of this decision, and I'm taking my time weighing my options.
I'm not disappointed in myself regarding BDR, but I'm frustrated with the situation. So, I'm not rushing this decision. But I'm definitely considering it.
Am I mad?
How quickly have you jumped back into training after a huge race?