Well, my first race back was A1A, but my first race really, truly back was this past weekend. And luckily I got a good photo out of it.
|Dr. G told me it would be 3-6 months before I was back in my previous running shape. I'm about four months post-op, so I'd say I'm right on track.|
1. To Dr. Guerra, of course, who believed me when I described symptoms, performed my surgeries, and gave me back my legs.
2. To my PT's office, where a variety of people helped me heal up, get strong, and return to running as quickly as possible.
3. To the vascular surgeon's office, where they dismissed my desire for real answers and treatment because "young women regret surgery scars".
Obviously I mean to thank the first two. I hope it's not premature. I'm still in recovery, and there is still time for things to go wrong...but I feel like I've definitely turned a corner.
I'm debating writing the third letter at all. I'm not sure it will change the doctor's behavior or bring me any peace - to be honest, I'm over it, so I don't need closure or anything. At the same time, maybe hearing that being a misogynistic jerk isn't the best bedside manner would do him good. I may write the letter and not even send it.
When I look at that picture, I see strength, power, determination, and joy. I see me in my element. I can't see the scars, even when I look for them.
On an unrelated note, the Fast and the Furriest was an eye-opener for me, and I can't stop thinking about what my performance this past Saturday means. For one thing, I've realized I don't need to hold back as much as I have been. Track is over, so now I can run more frequently during the week, and I am planning to build in longer runs. I'm not necessarily interested in speedwork yet; right now I'm really enjoying just running. But I have a couple more 5ks coming up in May that I'd like to crush, so we'll see.
And I am tentatively looking for a winter half marathon.
I originally wanted to run the A1A half in 2019 but won't be able to. This weekend when I caught up with Sean he brought up Space Coast, and I think that would be perfect. It was my first marathon, so running it as my first half as a comeback would be really special and would make up for missing A1A. When I floated this idea by Matt, he was all for it.
|I have time to decide, of course.|